New Year, New Blog, New Hope

Stien – 4th January 2021

When Lianne and I discussed starting to blog together, we talked about encouraging others and sharing encouragements. Last week, coughing and covered in Covid, stopped from sharing my Christmas with any family outside our house, isolating again and about to face a new lockdown… I faced a lack of hope. I felt like I was loose, floating among the planets, tiny and insignificant in the universe. My three year old has been walking round singing this beautiful snippet of a song, “We won’t wait till things go well, to be J-O-Y with an F-U-L!” He obviously takes after non-Covid me, praise God. Then God started encouraging me. I had accepted that I should be grateful just to be alive. I felt, however, that things could go wrong. Things might not work out. I was suddenly questioning my position with God. Was I the apple of my Father’s eye, or was I ridiculous? Was it only David who had that closeness with God? NO! And over a couple of days, He showed me again that it is not because I am special, but because He is INCREDIBLE, that He cares about the tiny, the insignificant, the lowly, the ridiculous and He is the lifter of my head. Suddenly I went from free-floating emotionally in the universe, to having my feet set on a rock. I was reminded that I can and should expect Him to turn everything to good, because He loves me, because He cares, because completion and beauty and fulfillment are just normal aspects of who He is. I can’t change that with doubt or misery. Covid can’t change that.